Observation: The week of Truth

(goodevening in Yoruba)

Its me again, Ashlee. I've been gone for a long time, so I don't mind if you call me a stranger. Yet, I had to tell you where my mind had led me this week.

First and foremost, I thank God for his love and kindness and unconditional love. He proves as the only one that could never disappoint me. The only one that understands me, even when I don't understand myself. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you.

On another note, I've been distant this week.. from everything. Not for any specific reason. Sometimes you just need a break. Not be amongst your usual circle, not eat at the same time you eat, not sit in the same seat in class, just an overall shift. It gives you a different perspective on your surroundings. To observe the people that surrounded you from another point of view. I watched the way they responded, acted, looked, everything. Mind you I did not do this on purpose, nothing was planned, It just happened.

Now that I sit and think, there were some things that were different, but for the most part, these characteristics and factors were always there. They were just accepted as a norm for me. I know you're like, "what is she talking about".. okay, without being specific, lets say whenever you talk about yourself and your problems, you friends ignore you and move onto another subject. You may laugh it off and accept it like that or accept their silence as them understanding your problem, but eliminate that they would ignore you. Now, if you partake in this same situation as your distant self, observing your friends while in minor conversation, you notice things about their demeanor and how they handle you. You notice it because before you accepted it as a norm and gave an excuse. But the fact of the matter is that they were ignoring you. You won't notice that as their friend, but you will notice it as an observer.

Get it?

That particular situation was just an example, had nothing to do with my life. I noticed that the people around me are taking in the option of failure, and yet I fail to accept that word into my vocabulary. But hey, you gotta get it how yu live it. But I can say this, observation will tell a whole lot about people. Try it sometime though.